Why do I care less at 46?



Happy Birthday!

Why do I care less at 46?

Today, I celebrate my 46th birthday and I have concluded that I don’t need to be “a strong woman” or an “independent woman” or a “professional woman” or a “homemaker” or “anything” kind of woman.

I simply want to be a happy person who want to live more happy moments.

Just as God made the birds and the trees; the moon and the stars; the heavens and the earth… I too was created as part of the great universe. I have the right to be here. Just as in the life cycle of a flower which blooms and dies, my life too will bloom and die. At the end of my life, I simply want to die knowing that I took full responsibility for this one life I have – MINE.

At an earlier part of my life journey, I lived with so much guilt for not fixing all the problems I saw around me and not doing more to show how responsible I was in making the world a better place.

Now, I know for a fact, that all of what we gain or lose in this lifetime, has to do with the seeds which we plant in our souls from our previous lifetimes and within this lifetime. Each seed is sown in the moment and each moment should never be taken for granted. Fear and love are the two spectrums which dominate our lives all the times. If all of our moments can be rooted in love, which also roots trust, then we can all learn to care less and live more. Fear roots us in doubt and robs us of our joyful moments. Even when we feel the grips of fear, we can consciously create a better moment by saying, ” I embrace this fear/anxiety/uncertainty which I am faced with in this moment, but I choose to trust that life/God, will take care of me and all my needs will be met.”  We can choose to live in love or in fear.  We can choose to move from fear and doubt to love and trust.  We can do it moment by moment.

What is a moment anyway?

A breath.
A thought.
A blink of an eye.
A heart beat.
A look.
A touch.
A smile.
A feeling.
A space.
A conviction.
A consciousness.
A decision.

Although I don’t have complete control over each moment (God is always in control), I know that I can decide how I want to shape each moment. A pleasant thought, a pleasant feeling, a pleasant action, a pleasant space… collectively each of those moments create the future.  We don’t need to live the future by projecting our fears.

So I care less about all the things and people and situations that create calamities and destruction  of people and societies and nature.  I no longer feel the need to fix them.

I live for moments that make me feel alive, happy, healthy and joyful. All those moments will vibrate into the same wavelengths of others who choose to live this way and collectively we will create harmony which will result in a better world… but most importantly, my consciousness is fueling my body to LIVE and FEEL happy.

The world needs more people rooted in love and trust.




Author: Mags

Live this moment, as if it were your last moment. Live with purpose and die happily exhausted knowing that you used every bit of your talent to serve life fully. Live your soul mission - the universe will conspire with you to move you from vision to mission.

12 thoughts on “Why do I care less at 46?”

  1. Reblogged this on Sayana Lifestyle and commented:
    From spending a lot of my childhood around much older person’s I came to the idea that life is about embracing the good and happy moments and holding on to that.. It’s also about making happy moments for yourself. Magdelene says it more eloquently and beautifully and has more experience than me.


    1. Thank you for sharing Monetta. I seem to be an older version of you… it is so wonderful to meet beautiful light spirited persons like yourself on the journey. Thank you – keep on soaring.


  2. Happy birthday fair lady. You have earned your
    Life today. You have a good record. May you continue to remain rooted on love and additionally you are like a seagule SD souring higher and higher test very conscious of who you are. Enjoy God company always. I love you dear friend.


    1. Thank you Angelina! I feel truly blessed and even more blessed when I think of the deep friendships I have shared with amazing people like you. Thank you. xxx


  3. Yes, I must say this is one of the great benefits of growing older – wisdom, and a certain unburdening, a certain type of liberation as you grow and move into who you really are!


  4. Mag, belated Happy Birthday! No more ice-creams on your birthday. Missing this one. However, amazing thoughts. Sharing these reflections with the world says a lot about your personality. You were created for a reason – this is your calling from the Almighty Father, to reach out to the masses. I know you have the FAITH and you TRUST HIM. Keep it up Mag.You are truly blessed.
    Love you always!!!!


    1. Yes – we miss that ice-cream. Thank you always for your support and love and encouragement MaryAnna. You are one of those amazing individuals who have rooted for me and kept my faith going.


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