I gave HER an eviction notice today. The End of THAT relationship.
She has tormented me for ten years.¬† She has cost me money, time and wasted my investments.Every single time I am about to ""launch"" that great creative genius inside of me, Frightful Mags¬†pops up her head and taunts me mercilessly, leaving me so fearful that I retreat to this small corner where the familiar voices soothe¬†me, reminding me over and over, that my place is just this small, dark¬†corner.¬†Each time it happens, I remain trapped in the dark room, even afraid to open my eyes for fear that the light would burn me. Today, I had enough of her. Even within the dark shadows of my mind, the light came through burning those walls which has¬†kept me languishing for¬†so long.¬† She stood up to me.¬†¬†Her familiar voice¬†rose high but I found the courage to¬†whip her¬†back.¬† I cursed her up and threw a tantrum.¬† I heard my voice transcend the prison walls which locked me with the fear of success and saw the bolts of laziness spring out, releasing me to unfamiliar grounds¬†and the determination to free myself.¬†¬†I suddenly heard the sweetness of a voice that seem to¬†flow out of my mouth - a voice which I barely remembered.¬†The sweetness of the voice reminded me of the time before¬†she built those prison walls around me.¬†¬†The walls started to crumble, piece by piece. The longer I sang, the more my voice seem to become one with the entire universe.¬† The light¬†engulfed me lifted me into this effortless vortex where I felt my soul expanded to¬†push me to the outer boundaries¬†where¬†I could hear¬†magnificent voices¬†cheering me on. But wait.¬† Just before I leave, I must give Frightful Mags the eviction notice so that she knows for certain that there is a price to pay when she has sucked up my earnings, time and investment for far longer than I should have tolerated.¬† I could have another tenant. Dear Frightful Mags,¬†This is to notify you that your failure to¬†step up to¬†your success¬†over the last ten years¬†has rendered you in violation of our lease agreement which stated that you were going to:
- stand up for your life
- use your talent to generate a million dollar income and not merely just enough to get by
- get rid of all these self- destructive, sabotaging beliefs such as, ""I don't have time""; I am not smart enough""; ""I have not had this success in my past""; ""My life is out of control,"" I will rise when I win the lottery,"" ""Other people are not cooperating with me"", ""I am no one important.""
- be a voice for the vulnerable and
- use your life as an inspiration to help others achieve their dreams.