Maybe all you need to do is to embrace your crazy self in 2019!
ADJECTIVE mentally deranged, especially as manifested in a wild or aggressive way. ""Stella went crazy and assaulted a visitor"" ¬∑ [more] synonyms: mad ¬∑ insane ¬∑ out of one's mind ¬∑ deranged ¬∑ demented ¬∑ [more] extremely enthusiastic. ""I'm crazy about Cindy"" ¬∑ [more] synonyms: very enthusiastic ¬∑ passionate ¬∑ fanatical ¬∑ excited ¬∑ very keen on ¬∑ [more] (of an angle) appearing absurdly out of place or in an unlikely position. ""the monument leaned at a crazy angle""For the records, I am not mentally deranged. So my own definition is that I will be 'out of my mind, extremely enthusiastic...appearing out of place or in an unlikely position! ¬† My sentence at the end of 2019 will be, ""What a crazy year this was!""¬† and it will mean: ""You crazy girl lived out of your mind!¬† You are so extremely enthusiastic about life that you appeared out of place and ended up in unlikely positions!¬† Your craziness created momentum around you and you had such an enjoyable year being YOU without the safeguards for approvals and permissions!¬† Well done - CRAZY does it!"" I reflected a little bit on my life and also realized that in my crazy moments, I seemed to have experienced quite a lot of joy.¬† In 2018, I did a few crazy things - left my job for an adventure in Rwanda with Wilson - one of the best life experiences which I have had.¬† We travelled to Cape Town, South Africa where I watched him in admiration presenting at the World Travel Market.¬† We explored the city and sites of Cape Town with great enthusiasm.¬† I even reached out to a stranger whom I met in a FB group and we met at our hotel in Cape Town and she is now a good friend on FB. We rode¬† on a motorcycle in Rwanda with an unstable helmet through the woods and red dirt earth to get to the Twin Lakes, on the border of Rwanda and Uganda. I crazily spoke my truth¬† through tears and allowed myself to be vulnerable to my feelings. ¬† I walked for hours in a strange city and sat with servers at a local restaurant, who had limited English skills,¬† helping me to figure out how to get back home.¬† Looking back, those crazy moments seem to have removed something - fear for the unknown... and then brought some new confidence in walking the unknown path. Today, in this moment, it feels like I need to be a bit more crazy to tap into the unknown parts of my world so that I can step up more purposefully in not merely existing but THRIVING! Overthinking can significantly alter your momentum for a life wrapped with the treasures and pleasures of LIVING. Happy 2019!¬† Be your best CRAZY self. Love, Mags"