In The Pilgrimage, by Paulo Coelho, Petrus talks about three symptoms of losing our dreams:
1. Lack of time
2. Our certainties – Because we don’t want to see life as a grand adventure, we begin to think of ourselves as wise and fair and correct about asking so little of life
3. Peace – life becomes a Sunday afternoon; we ask for nothing grand and we cease to demand anything more than we are willing to give
I can relate so well to this. For years, boxes of material have been stored in my room with the hope that I would publish something one day. I became almost at peace with my excuses – I did not have time, why not just be satisfied with what I had, why bother with all of it? Who cares about me or my writing?
Even when we made decision to publish Mags Magazine, I was filled with self doubt but each time those doubts came over me, the universe would send a sign to remind me to fight for my dream. The team which pulled Mags Magazine together was created overnight. On the evening we decided to publish, it was exactly 4 weeks to the date. I sent an e-mail to Mila, the graphic designer, to ask for a meeting and met with her the very next day. I presented the project and with no hesitation she gave me her full support, with no idea of how either of use would get paid.
Here are some more distinct signs which demonstrated to me that the universe was in full support of me:
a) My partner was coming in from New York and we felt we needed a place to be away from the day-to-day distractions to focus on the Magazine. We had exactly a month to get the entire thing done. One evening I started searching for houses to house-sit – I thought that would perhaps make it more affordable. I did not find anything that evening but the next day, I met my girlfriend Viviane who excitedly told me that she was going to Brazil for a month and would need someone to stay at her house. Of course I volunteered and it was perfect timing!
b) I had a meeting with Lisa Anna Palmer to discuss some work stuff in general and to thank her for the work which she had done for us at the office. Somewhere in the middle of that meeting, I started talking to Lisa about the Magazine. At that time, I did not quite know her – we had only been having work related meetings. I could feel Lisa’s energy rise during the conversation and I pulled out my computer to show her some of the writings. We spent three hours that afternoon speaking about the content and my experiences. Lisa listened attentively and pledged her full support to helping me get it done. Two days later, she connected me to Lynn, who was one of the editors for the project. A few days afterwards, I also met with Shamsia who also agreed to edit. This was from a very informal conversation.
c) About a week before the launch, in a moment of overwhelm, I was just about to send an e-mail to my partner to ask him to forget about Mags Magazine – I felt that it was becoming too much! At that precise moment, someone came to see me at my office. He said to me, “I saw that on FB that you are going to publish a Magazine…. I am so proud of you… I came to tell you that you are not doing it for yourself, you are doing it for all of us. ” As I listened to him, I resigned by initial thought about forgetting about the project.
d) On another occasion, just shortly after the one above, I became filled with anxiety again. Once again, I wanted to call it off. My partner called me in that same moment and told me that should check my e-mail box. There was the preview of the Magazine from Dr. Edmunds, a well respected writer. You can see his review in the preview of Mags Magazine
e) A few days before the launch of the Magazine, at Lisa’s invitation, I attended “Refresh Your Passion” day long event which was put on by Kathie Donavan. There, I sat in awe as I listened to the experiences of amazing people who fought for their dreams and pursued their passions. Kory Kealy, Laura Traplin and Michelle Valberg, in particular struck an inspirational cord within me as I listened to her experiences in pursing their passions. Laura’s message from Sprit “I am my life purpose.” was just what I needed to hear. I went back home that day, fully energized and knew in my heart that I was on the right track with my own dream and stepping out of my comfort box.
f) One day, I picked up one of Oprah’s magazines and instantaneously opened the page with her interview with Paulo Coelho where he spoke about his life and his journey to getting his first book published. That interview spoke so loudly to me – it was as if I was in the room with Oprah, doing the interview with him. And the words which resonated deeply were:
“The good fight is the one fought in the name of our dreams. When we’re young and our dreams first explode inside us with all their force, we are very courageous, but we haven’t learned how to fight. With great effort, we learn how to fight but by then we no longer have the courage to go on into combat. So we turn against ourselves and do battle within. We become our worst enemy. We say that our dreams are childish, or too difficult to realize or the result of our not having known enough about life. We kill our dreams because we are afraid to fight the good fight.” Paulo Choelo
There are many, many other signs, miracles and manifestations which happened in the process to nudge me forward. I am grateful that this universe blessed me with the vision, provided a wonderful team to work with, my partner’s unwavering support, great sponsors and ensured that everything worked smoothly.
I know that when God implants a dream in your soul, you were born to live it. To not live your dream, is an injustice to the freedom of your soul.